astro(il)logical

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okay so according to the stars i am supposed to having the time of my life...
i am supposed be getting favours from VIPS and having great opportunities and blahblahblah....
and here i am penniless pretty much ...im defly not getting a Ferrari from any1 this week...
and here i am in the middle of chaos with everything going wrong...in all directions...
im losing hair,teeth(i dont know how many i got so wouldnt know if i lost one or two...),peace,sleep,NOT WEIGHT and then of course friends....people ....family...which would make me a loser?
coz im losing so much and just gaining age.weight and experience in the process and none of those seem to be helping me in any way...
its like the universe is plotting it ...you know like that terrible viva which was supposed to be damn easy....even what is supposed to be damn easy is being made difficult for me...
coming to think age weight and experience are a lethal triad....pull you down more than push you up :|
and what definitely does not help is being told this is the luckiest week of my life ....everything is falling in place and that kind of stuff
i mean if this is what things which have fallen in place look like....what is it supposed to be when everything is wrong ...
and then there is the lecture you will get from everyone when things go wrong ...that there are people with worse luck...then again threre are people with better luck as well....
and then the people who think all is well with you coz u smile at everyone....which brings me to the quote:
When I cry at night, the only thing I can think to myself is...how can I seem so---perfectly finein the morning.  Why do I smile like nothing is wrong?  And how does not one single person notice that I'm not okay?
Nobody does...the closest
the farthest...
the fam
the friends ..
(the random people who turn up on chat and ask me why i am sad all the time do maybe but dude they dont even know me!!!)
in short everyone who matters doesnt...and everyone who notices doesnt exist !!

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