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lazy sunday afternoon the words that cut through like a dagger...coz in 21 years i haven't experienced even one ...:| as unbelievable as that sounds... after the early morning wake up...(yes there is nothing called waking up late...unless you call 6 am late like my granny....)..wake up time is 5 am..anything before 5 is just a lil early (even if it is 3am) and everything after 5 is late... which doesn't work in my favour...especially since i couldn't even sleep till 3 last night... anyway the Sunday routine is wake up ,do ur thing......do ur prayers BEFORE 10 AM ...eat brunch by 12 which is very very appetising when it is cooked...but you don't feel like eating on the plate ..with me atleast...today being the exception... some sunday special activities according to the moods of the leader of the day.......... and then we move into pre-next week mode....which is prepping for next week....so lazy sundays are a myth and ...

okay so maybe all those stars in heaven felt bad after yesterdays blog and decided to start up.... i went up to check my marks today and lol this is funny...so here i am looking at my marks...and somehow everyone before and after me in my batch has lesser marks..some have flunked and im having an abnormally large share of marks... and i found it more amusing than amazing.... maybe the guy who took my viva decided i had been through more and hence deserved more... and yes i did see people go up in flames...the ex toppers the sad part is that they had to try to corner me in public..but the funny part is i finally didnt care.... i found it more amusing than annoying... life is funny ...in a cruel way :) :( :| :/

okay so according to the stars i am supposed to having the time of my life... i am supposed be getting favours from VIPS and having great opportunities and blahblahblah.... and here i am penniless pretty much ...im defly not getting a Ferrari from any1 this week... and here i am in the middle of chaos with everything going wrong...in all directions... im losing hair,teeth(i dont know how many i got so wouldnt know if i lost one or two...),peace,sleep, NOT WEIGHT and then of course friends....people ....family...which would make me a loser? coz im losing so much and just gaining age.weight and experience in the process and none of those seem to be helping me in any way... its like the universe is plotting it ...you know like that terrible viva which was supposed to be damn easy....even what is supposed to be damn easy is being made difficult for me... coming to think age weight and experience are a lethal triad....pull you down more than push you up :| and what definitely does not h...

yes i am a stat crazed person ...and i love to keep looking at the stats page on my blog.... and one month down the line what still amazes me...is other than the India US and UK people (who i force to read my blog sadly :P)...i have stats from Germany Malaysia and Australia?i mean  really ....people from that far would bother to read...!!! looks like im typing in my sleep...good night

okay so here is why you really dont want to know how my day went... today is the end of clinical posting exam in social medicine (translation: they torture us for a month in a dept and then like to test us to see if they did it effectively...).. it was supposed to be on monday...but the  only student who bothered to study decided to force the department (im still wondering what he used to blackmail them...)..to have it TODAY... anyway my batch was supposed to go to the medicine ward and being so rainy god blessed us with many a malaria case...and i knew malaria pretty well.. so all i did for the last one week..DESPITE THE NAGGING THING AT THE BACK OF MY MIND...WHICH SAID..."YOU DONT KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT GYNAEC ....GOO TIME TO READ UP!!"..i still continued with medicine... ohh i should tell you.....Nothing against cute babies (as long as they dont puke/pee/poop/any other form of bodily fluid ejection... on me...) or their moms (except for the crazy hormones) but I HATE GYN...

why is it when things go wrong ...they all go wrong together?? in clusters i mean....its like problems come in herds ...and like to stay ... unwanted guests in your life i must say..... and the one thing that you think should not NOT NOT GET messed up... gets messed up first and fixed last..... and having been in the everything-has-gone-wrong-but-nothing-wants-to-get-fixed ....phase...WAY TOO MANY TIMES... and maybe i wont feel bad if i had anything to do with those things going wrong...but i DONT ...:| and even when things get fixed ...either its a half done job OR . .....the happiness comes mixed with sadness ... its like extra strong coffee...to which you add extra sugar ...its bitter...too bitter to taste good...its sweet but not sweet enough to cover the bitterness.....its bittersweet ...and its gonna make ur tongue taste like crap for a long time later.... so basically the good times are like that and ...the bad times are like well burnt food- unfixable,difficult to swa...

my luck ain't that bad i guess...atleast not today though i knew it in the morn ...coz everything went wrong...yes it all went WRONG! and when i have terrible mornings...i usually have better days... . i havent slept all night coz i was scared i was scared coz i couldnt study and i couldnt study coz i was scared woke up with a backache... i got late for college.. i got stuck in the rain... i almost got killed crossing the road... this HUGE STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID BEST BUS DRIVER DROVE right into puddle..and you know the whole wave of ( i dont want to think what all went into the making of that puddle) water sprayed all over me ....just like the movies...!!! gr8 ..im walking to the bustop and now im the centre of attention!! marvellous and to make things better ...raining ....got an exam and NO BUS IN THE VICINITY.... and when one does come it is full :@ not the best thing right when u plan to study in the bus.... so here i am in the st bus seat with the pervy guys who k...

What would hurt you the most: broken bone broken friendship broken mirror (hurts too) broken toe..(has happened to me) broken heart broken cookie (its depressing wen u open the pack the pieces fall onto ur lap and u cant even eat em) broken....you get it been through all except no.5....but you know you can clear up after all the other ones... the broken friendships are the messy ones... you can't forget it.. you can't ignore it... you can't even accept it...you can try and put a bandage called "sorry" on the top of it... but it doesn't always heal... and then of course pretty much like infections you will have people who will try to get between you... and try to make the most out of it.... and it hurts to shove em out and try to get things back on track. and then sometimes...things get worse...and there is a fatality...pop goes ur buddy-ness... DEAR GOD ...DON'T MAKE ME GO THROUGH THIS OVER N OVER AGAIN...

Hot Hot Hot.... If you are so hot why would you have anything to do with me... It isn't even like I'm worth it.. Or am I? You would think I'm some kinda heat magnet.... Yeah you read that right... I was in a hurry today in a attempt to break off my holiday schedule.. And I think I forgot that the Fire God/Heat God has a crush on me... O something like that... Coz I have the ability to get burnt even when I don't do anything...I promise I'm like really cautious and stuff And still my hands get burnt ....usually my hands...till today at least.... I have been burnt by almost every type of heat... Classified as wet heat and fry heat ..check check... Hot solid object...check Hot liquid.....check Hot gas( I'm talking steam....)...check Agarbathi check Frying pan check Pressure cooker check... Hot oil check (today's spl...) Steam ...check.. Hot liquids including boiling hot water ..tea...c...

Okay this is as abnormal as abnormal can feel... It is like it is abnormally abnormal...not even the usual normally abnormal feeling.. I have not had the urge at all of late....for a month almost...? It is like it is lost completely...where did it go? I mean it isn't like I don't want to...it is more like I can't...and when I feel like it I can't stop myself...Nope that pen won't stop writing till everything my mind thinks has come out the way my mind tells me it should...Dammit...I can't even edit or decide what to write....Whenever I do ...it usually gets messed up. And this is the one thing I  enjoy doing....I feel like it only when I am supposed to be doing something else.. Guess I will feel like writing again during pre-exam boredom...now that I have exam after exam for ...okay I don't know when I am coming out of the other side of the course... Whoever thought writing could be this difficult...Exams exams...here they come :|

okay so you arent the person i was best buddies with...or atleast I thought i was and here I am talking to a complete stranger 3 years down the line... the person i knew and the person i see are simply not the same and when they start acting the way they used to despise...lets say friend a hates pink... imagine friend a 3 years down the line in pink pink pink pink!!!! thats what im talking about... and here you see them all over people they claimed to hate all along.. "ohh you are so sweet?" wth!! people change and i am not the best when it comes to dealing with it...especially when you thought you had somebody all figured out...and you realise you didnt know anything... and the people who you think you dont know.....ok thats for another post