WORD SALAD

Entangled between the likes,retweets and shares, Sinking between millions,none who for me cares. Yet I wake up every morn and check faithfully, Find none,and tell myself -you are indeed silly. Once upon  a time the number of likes mattered, Once upon a time by the comments I was flattered. Now it's all the same,the name,the game,the fame. Now I just don't care,really what a shame. Addicted to this web of thoughts, My life is now a sum of noughts. I do not know if I really do exist without, If I exist I have a slight doubt. Like the fish in the net,I am caught and helpless, The bait was good and now my life is a mess.

Its a week since the "new year" began.A week since all the parties and the random people wishing you a "happie healthy wealthy and phosphorous "  new year... A week since you got those texts made out of asterisks ...wishing you a wonderful year ahead.. A week since that ecard was delivered to your email account which you are yet to check (call me old fashioned but I still miss the number of cards the postman used to deliver at this time of the year...the real ones..the ones you could touch...the ones that were signed...the ones that you could look at after 10 years and get nostalgic..and wouldn't expire after 45 days..) Has anything changed?If you ever took a resolution did you live up to it? Has all the health and phosphorousness taken its effect?Are the days happier? I'm guessing not..coz the date ....doesn't change your fate ...unless you tried real hard or something ... They say a new start...a fresh beginning is all you need.Well I did ...

It is probably a late realisation that the year hits you like a train...you think it's moving quite slow...it looks like that...before you know it ...it's gone past...leaving you at the empty station for the next one..get in the way and it squashes you and leaves a crushed mass behind... The year  of THE ROYAL WEDDING..when the future King got married and the world was actually checking out his bro and sis-in-law...the year some great people..both good and bad said bye to the world..the year prices kept going up and down and up and down ...like a O.o nevermind. It is over.It is going. It isn't coming back.It is flowing. The good moments and the bad, The ones that made you laugh,the ones that made you sad. The days you wish would just stretch on forever. The days you wish didn't have to happen ever. The days that put you through pain, The lessons that left a stain. The things you wish you could undo, The dreams you wish you could have made true. What you had,you...

What is so good about goodbye huh?There is absolutely nothing so good about it.If you added good to a hello/hi/morning /evening etc. , atleast it makes some sense.This person is going away,probably for long.What is so good about it?What?What?I don't know about others...but I SIMPLY HATE SAYING GOODBYE... provided I like you somewhat.If I don't I might say goodbye before hello..never know. It is easier to say hi any day, than saying bye.From a simple Skype conversation with your family to saying bye to your sister as she leaves.... to come back home only after a year( though in some cases its quite relieving to say bye to the person and get rid off  them.)I would rather walk up to somebody I have never spoken to and say hi and start a conversation...than say bye to anyone...even over chat (which is also probably why if I start saying bye to anyone I am talking to at 10:15 pm... I probably log off only at 11:45 pm..) It is a fact.I am a better ice breaker than a conversat...

I know this is probably the case with most people in the country not as privileged as me..on a daily basis that too... but I guess we are all used to comfort.Way too used to comforts and joys that we don't know are comforts till they are taken away from us (whichever guy wrote the rule book saw to it I guess :(   )... Everyday you get to eat whenever you feel like...feel hungry atleast.You get to drink water when you need to.You get force-fed (atleast in my house you are....you have to plead for mercy) till you look like the moon yourself.Round,globular, moving really slow....... And the one day the Earth decides to butt in between the Moon and the Sun (am I right?Always been a little weak in Physics!)....or the Moon between the Sun and the Earth, I don't know what happens to the stars,to the zodiacs,to the Gods....but one thing happens to me....Stomach thunder!!That deep rumbling noise...sounds majestic but its begging...begging for food..begging for water..begging for...

"....but I thought you never did this..." "I thought you don't do this..." "I know you will do this..." "You are ____..dont _____" You thought.You assumed.You figured that out. You assumed I was being arrogant by not saying anything.Maybe I was shy. You assumed I was dumb and didn't know anything.Maybe I chose not to say anything. You assumed I was ok with it.Maybe I just chose to let it pass. You assumed I was not hurt.Maybe I decided not to show. You assumed that I lied.Maybe you don't have your facts right. I'm not saying I don't judge people the first time I meet them.I do.There are a lot of people I hated when I first met them.People who I thought were plain weird.People who I thought were immature.People who seemed a lot of things until I decided to take a chance,go and talk to them and find out for real.Most of them are my best friends now.(My judgement is not that bad.Some of them were really freaky people...

No.I don't know if that is an actual word!Coming to think of it I don't care either... Coz now I am a zombie more or less and I don't think zombies care about grammar and language..do they ?? Ever gone through an entire week without knowing when it started and when it was the weekend? Ever slept for 6 minutes and thought it was and hour or vice versa? Ever had 3 meals and realised later you didnt know what you ate...if you ate at all..and should you scrounge for food again? Well thats what is happening to me...its all one big..... I don't know .....chunk of time... I dunno if it is morning or night anymore... I dunno if  its brush your teeth time or go to sleep time.. I dunno if its Friday or Sunday or Monday ....until I go to twitter/fb and see "TGIF" or "dammit its monday!" I dunno if I just had breakfast or if I had lunch..I don't know what I ate... All I know is I had strong filter coffee and dozed off..!!If coffee doesnt work wh...