Ersatz

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I am literally begging for inspiration now.



 Ersatz.

Dec 2, 2010 
I am looking into the mirror
Not knowing what I see
I look at what I have become
I know it is harshly true
But its not the me I know I am
Though its what I seem to you.

I look at me everyday
And wonder if this is  what I  am
Do I know what I am looking atn
Or is this a stranger after all...

I see the same me on the outside
Probably with a little less hair,
I see how things have changed me
Life hasn't really been fair.

I know it is an echo of I did
When I thought i was right.
Its a duplicate of me on the outside
But inside I don’t think its right.
Everyday I wonder, is this what I wanted to be
Is what I have become,what I wanted to see?

I look at me and me looks at me
It  looks like me is me
But the me that I am looking at
And the me that I am just together can’t be

My heart is reflecting my emotions
Into actions that I don't want to believe
Could I be doing something I detest
Am I a design I didn’t weave ?

I can try to close my eyes and shut away the truth
But it is what it will be no matter what i do.
Should I stop looking at the mirror..
Or break it into two ???




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