WORD SALAD

the thing abt being a doctor or trying to become one is that you cant be A CLUELESS DOC.. you have to know everhything ...always.. which is what i am afraid of the most... you cant never let your knowledge let you down.. and its not like people will ask you only after you get your degree... people will ask you whenever wherever...OUTTA THE BLUE.. UR a med student...ur sposed to know.. friends family relatives friend's friends .... anybody... and you should know  what you have to do coz u cant google it up all the time.. and yeah there are escape routes....what we call 'BLANKET TREATMENT' .... where u just treat every damn thing possible so the patient invariably gets better... but thats just how it isnt supposed to be done.. and i dont wanna b another quack... i dont want to be a quack at all!! i want to go out there and be the bestest doc ever... and not knowing doesnt help! :( but hey how am i sposed to get 7000-8000 pages of knowledge into my head AN...

i have always wondered this...if ur the non contributing member by which i mean audience in a fight...and ur not like supporting anyone... do u get to laugh at the lack of logic and the irrational arguments or do u sit and cry that u cant laugh?? trust me it is frustrating...u cant laugh and u cant swallow the laugh... being in a fight of course is an entirely different story...u can wateva u want and say i said it in a fit of rage (and thank god we get to say that...its A LIFESAVER...that phrase..) the safest thing hence is probably to jus dip ur nose into a book and act like ur reading and mentally laugh at /curse the situation..or cry if u must ...but ...arrrrgh nevermind

okay so you all have read the story about corvus the crow...(if you haven't i recommend you do ...) i really dont know how or why ....but apparently all our ancestors come back as crows....and you have to feed your ancestors before you eat...and on saturdays the blessings get doubled by some kind of divine mathematics.....i dont get much time to pray throughtout the week anyway..unless there is an exam of course...so saturday is the  prayer room cleanup,prayer backlog completion etc etc day.. and  there is this annoying cawing match going in the background....outside the kitchen window ...with glossy black feathers and a keen eye sits the most irritating crow ever....i kinda assumed it was a call for the lady next door and didnt bother about it... but then i saw the same crow on the windowsill in the next room...centimetres away from the table..fighting like i stole his breakfast (ot a she bt im sure if it were a she..she wouldnt have bothered with the manners and...

Exams are on this month... i mean this month!! and that would be 7 papers and one clinical exam and that would be roughly 14 textbooks..each the size of a huge pumpkin ...only flattened if you get what i mean.... and then again i havent touched my books in the last 6 months...and when i have i have fallen asleep on it and wen i woke up  the page was like crumply ... point being ...well i cant do it .. or mebbe i can but i cant or i can but i dont know and i jus realised i need to update my playlists... arrange tabs around my phone menu clean the room i mean seriously...i usually can atleast spell the subject... this time round i cant even do tht ..its call otolary...blablabla.... see!! and now suddenly the whole world is more interesting .... EXAMS !! :|